doubletalk.

"we are so vain that we even care for the opinion of those that we do not care for."

the only power that people have over us, is the power that we give them. why do we live in a world where we let other people's opinions dictate us?
while i do think that we have a moral responsibility to do what's right, why do we get so engulfed in what other people think?
if you're going to be brave enough to do something or act a certain way, you should at least be brave enough to stand behind your decision. i think that we just do things because we think that no one will call us out on it, and then when they do, we backtrack or make excuses or point fingers in other direction.
i am far from perfect. i make mistakes. i say things i shouldn't. but i want to at least be the person who is willing to say, "yeah, i did that." and when i'm wrong, i should be strong enough to apologize.
it's natural to want to nurture. to want everyone to love you. but realistically, not everyone will. at the end of the day, i just want people to know that i am the person that i say i am.
some days being the "bigger" person is exhausting.
some days you stoop to other people's levels.
some days you realize that not everyone wants to be saved.
some days you have to close the door and realize that there is no window.
and today i can't be honest enough.